Sitting in our high school chapel last week the words echoed over the speakers…”You hold my world in your hands”. It’s from the song Healer. This song has meant so much to me over the years through Payton’s bout with salmonella poisoning at 5 months old to my benign tumor to Kaden’s open heart surgery at 2.5 months old. I have believed God for healing and have watched him work many miracles. I have also seen God choose to answer those prayers in different ways as loved ones went to be with Him and were ultimately healed and made perfect.
Last week this song meant something completely different. When I read this one sentence “You hold my world in your hands” I think of the phrase “my world.” What is my world?
My world is my comfort. It is my husband, my kids, my family, my friends, my church, my worship. It is things that I put a lot of weight in. It is what I hold dear to my heart. It is what would shake me a little if it didn’t exist anymore. It is what I feel like I have to grip with tightly closed hands not willing to let go.
And then I read the whole sentence “You hold my world in your hands”. You being God. My God, my Sovereign God, creator of the universe, holds THE world in his hands. You know that song. “He’s got the whole world in his hands.” And I can grasp that. He keeps everything in order. He is God. He is in control. But he holds MY world? That phrase went into the depths of my heart last Wednesday.
I don’t have to hold so tightly to what God has given me because it is His. I am simply a steward of all the things I hold so dearly. They do not belong to me. They belong to Him. But He loves me and He lets me believe these are mine. That this is MY little world. And He lovingly holds MY WORLD in his hands. When my baby boy goes through a complicated heart surgery that could claim his life, He holds my world in his hands. When friends turn away from me because of what I choose to live, He holds my world in his hands. When my loved ones pass away, when my little girl gets her feelings hurt by another child, when I can’t see the forest for the trees, He holds my world in His hands.
And all of my little world is safe in His hands.